Alarm goes off, same ceiling crack
Same old weight on my chest, lying flat
Sunlight creeping through the blinds
But it don’t reach the dark in my mind
Cold floor, hoodie on
Mirror says “man,” but it feels all wrong
Jaw set tight, eyes half-dead
Got a million thoughts I never said
Pre-Chorus
I’m not crying, I’m just tired
Running low but wired like a live wire
Every day’s just “I’m alright”
While I’m gearing up for another fight
I’m angry but I don’t know why
Got fire in my chest and a blank in my eyes
Punching walls in my head at night
But I still show up, yeah I still clock in on time
I’m sinking but I look just fine
Cracking jokes on the fault line
World says, “Boy, you’re doing great”
While I’m barely holding my own damn weight
Friends say, “Bro, you’ve been quiet lately”
I just shrug, “Nah man, I’m just busy”
Truth is I don’t know how to say
I feel nothing most of the day
Then it flips and I’m seeing red
Over little things that get stuck in my head
Spill some coffee, miss a call
Now I wanna put my fist through a wall
So I breathe deep, count to ten
Swallow it down again, again
‘Cause men don’t break, we just bend
Till we don’t know where the pressure ends
I’m angry but I don’t know why
Got fire in my chest and a blank in my eyes
Punching walls in my head at night
But I still show up, yeah I still clock in on time
I’m sinking but I look just fine
Cracking jokes on the fault line
World says, “Boy, you’re doing great”
While I’m barely holding my own damn weight
Engine still running, tank on E
Everyone else gets the best of me
I’m screaming but it makes no sound
Just a smile when there’s people around
Wish I could say, “I’m not okay”
Without feeling weak or pushed away
So I lace my boots, step in line
Play the part every single time
If I stop moving, it all might hit
So I stay numb just to deal with it
Half alive but I call it strong
Been surviving like this too long
I’m angry and I’m tired too
Of fighting wars no one else can view
Still breathing, still getting through
But I don’t know how much longer I can do
Yeah I’m sinking but I look just fine
Just another guy in his “prime”
If you ask, I’ll say I’m okay
But I’m just getting by… day by day
Engine still running in the dark
No headlights, just a spark
