Fracture

I asked the question

out loud

but the room didn’t answer right

there was a delay

between sound and meaning

like something listening late

my hands felt unfamiliar

mid-sentence

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I noticed I was noticing

that part stayed

after everything else moved on

the edges of things

weren’t staying still anymore

walls not holding their shape

light not landing where it should

I kept blinking

to reset it

but it kept returning wrong

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something is repeating

beneath my thoughts

not words

not language

just repetition

without source

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it keeps splitting

not loudly

just enough to notice

then more

then again

then everything at once

I can’t find where it starts anymore

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people talk

but their voices don’t sit still

like they arrive late

to what they meant

I answer sometimes

and don’t recognize the answer as mine

there is a gap

between intention and arrival

and it’s widening

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I stop trying to hold it together

and it keeps going anyway

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NO CONTROL

(not thought)

NO CENTER

(not thought)

NO FIXING IT

(not thought)

IT CONTINUES

IT CONTINUES

IT CONTINUES

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it keeps splitting

quietly

like it was always doing it

and I’m just now noticing

I can’t locate the original state anymore

I can’t locate it

I can’t locate it

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I asked

and I’m still hearing the delay

between asking

and being