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Lyrics
Intro
Yeah
Uh
I been wide awake with nightmares
Yeah
Chorus
I been poppin’ pain just to feel somethin’, yeah
Demons in my head, I don’t need no friends
Love turn cold, heart numb, I don’t feel nothin’
I don’t trust nobody, they all pretend
I been livin’ fast, pray I see tomorrow
Money in my hand but my soul still hollow
I been wide awake with nightmares, no sleep
Tryna drown the pain but it swims too deep
Verse 1
I been fuckin’ up my liver, pour another cup
Mama said slow down, but I’m speedin’ up
I don’t wanna feel shit, that’s the reason I’m numb
If I let my guard down, I’m bleedin’ too much
Every bitch say “I love you,” that shit be a lie
They love the lifestyle, not the tears in my eyes
I been runnin’ from my past, yeah, I’m livin’ in sin
Tryna pray it all away but I relapse again
Got pills in my pocket, voices in my head
Told me “you ain’t shit,” now they want me dead
I smile in the mirror but I hate who I am
I don’t need a handout, I need a damn chance
Heart so cold, yeah it came with frostbite
Love me in the dark but you leave when it’s daylight
They don’t give a fuck till your name get buzz
Then they say they proud, but it’s fake as fuck
Chorus
I been poppin’ pain just to feel somethin’, yeah
Demons in my head, I don’t need no friends
Love turn cold, heart numb, I don’t feel nothin’
I don’t trust nobody, they all pretend
I been livin’ fast, pray I see tomorrow
Money in my hand but my soul still hollow
I been wide awake with nightmares, no sleep
Tryna drown the pain but it swims too deep
Verse 2
She said “baby, you different,” I heard that before
Every time I trust, I end up at war
I give you my heart, you give me a scar
Now I’m ridin’ solo in a stolen car
I been drinkin’ Hennessy like it’s holy water
Tryna wash away the sins of my father
PTSD got me stuck in my ways
I don’t fear death, I just fear the pain
Lost souls link up, yeah, misery loves company
I been poppin’ X like it’s fuckin’ candy
Doctor said “chill,” but he don’t know me
If I stop feelin’ numb, then it get lonely
I been talkin’ to God but I don’t hear back
Maybe He busy or I’m too off track
I don’t wanna die but I don’t wanna live
Stuck in between, I don’t know what to pick
Bridge
Tell me why love hurt worse than the drugs
Tell me why I still miss her touch
Tell me why the money don’t help
When I’m alone with my thoughts, fuck wealth
Chorus
I been poppin’ pain just to feel somethin’, yeah
Demons in my head, I don’t need no friends
Love turn cold, heart numb, I don’t feel nothin’
I don’t trust nobody, they all pretend
I been livin’ fast, pray I see tomorrow
Money in my hand but my soul still hollow
I been wide awake with nightmares, no sleep
Tryna drown the pain but it swims too deep
Outro
Wide awake
Still fucked up
Still alive
Barely
Details
GeneratedJan 4, 2026
Duration3:15
LanguageEnglish
Style
Emo melodic trap, sad but upbeat energy, guitar melodies, heavy 808s, punchy trap drums, autotuned emotional rap hooks
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Prompt by
velocityfall
velocityfallModelAria v5
