WTF

Damn ,what the fuck ,im so stupid I knew better now look and all for what,You killed a part of me that only you brought to life inside my heart ,i finally fell in love and at that moment in time sometimes I would lose myself in complete serenity like there was no other life being lived anywhere right in front of me ,over a year of bullshit ,then i truly let go and was in love all the way I could see nothing but us forever,planning future , on top of that I was going to ask you to merry me this weekend That was the plan until a week ago,You literally stabbed me in my heart with what you did ,you hurt my mom,my kids,and even Charles and Noah you don't understand how deep this is mentally for them babies and They think I left them again but I've been here for them the whole time ,you took that away from me im supposed to be there to protect and guide but now hate grows inside their heart because they will not know the truth before that damage is done in their hearts,they will get told lies about me to make other people look like heroes but they are the villain the whole time.

I dont understand nooo,ohhhh,I don't understand why ,I cant comprehend this pain inside is killing me every second that I, I don't know if they're ok,I don't know if the night sky covers the sun are they crying out for me i can feel there little hands in mine,i can hear them laughing,I miss saying its bed time,I lay in bed alone wondering how long this time until I can get them back home,nooo,nooo,noooo,nooo,not again,only me and god knows what I got to do,,,[danm I hope i can make it through,]its like a bad dream,its like make believe, Ohhhhhahhhhhohhhh,what the fuck, how could you do this to me.

What the fuck, do i do now im so scared and I don't know how to do this,I barely just got through this the last time ,your a silent killer you killed me fully on the inside i know I was getting better moving forward trying to make things right,ohhwoahh ahh,ohhh no,no,no,no I thought you loved me you say you do look at what you did,you knew exactly what you were doin ,,go ahead and move along my heart is broken,

Im livin on faith,there's no hoping,what the fuck did you dooo ,ohhhahhhohhh,im numb,im dead inside nowhere to run nowhere to hide,,whyy,ooohh,whhyy,

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Do you hear me crying deep inside, can you tell im falling i cant hardly sleep at night,I hope my baby boys are alright,how do you say you love me and do the things you do ,i bet you don't even notice the truth while your out having fun ill be here praying for my sons ,that I see them again in time for their hearts to mend before my time ends ,I hope my heart can last till then,my life's value im highly questioning, there is no one here for me, im crying out so loud, on the inside ,I drown,I make no sound .