Why Do I keep Doing It Over

I might seem like a pretty picture but you don’t know what the hell I’ve gone through to be at this peace. I know I’m heavy metal but I still get sentimental want somebody to just listen to who i really am. Many say they lived but nobody’s ever treated me right. I feel soooooooo empty. Why do I keep trying so hard if I keep getting tossed like a salad. Yet I still ask why do I keep trying so hard. If nobody wants me! I always keep asking myself why do I keep trying if I’m not wanted. Yet here I am and keep doing it over and over. Her I am back to square one and end up doing it over because my love is infinite but nobody cares or notices but you God. I guess that life and just keep doing it again.