[Verse 1]
Fifteen bags by the curb this morning
Coffee gone cold in my shaking hand
Whole years folded in on themselves
In the dark of a plastic land
Old notes
T‑shirts
Faded faces
All the almosts I couldn’t keep
Tied them shut like tiny coffins
Held my breath instead of sleep
[Chorus]
I’ve been throwing my life away
One small memory at a time
Every goodbye in a black‑tied knot
On a sidewalk
Left behind
If starting over means this ache
Then I’ll stand here in the rain
Watch fifteen bags of the person I was
Roll away with yesterday’s stains
[Verse 2]
Ticket stubs from trains I missed you on
Keys to doors that don’t exist
The birthday card I never answered
Lipstick smudge from the last good kiss
I find my name in crooked letters
From a hand I barely know
Guess I learned to write it braver
Than I ever learned to grow
[Chorus]
I’ve been throwing my life away
One small memory at a time
Every goodbye in a black‑tied knot
On a sidewalk
Left behind
If starting over means this ache
Then I’ll stand here in the rain
Watch fifteen bags of the person I was
Roll away with yesterday’s stains
[Bridge]
Maybe grief is just a hallway
You walk through with shaking feet
Dropping ghosts like broken suitcases
Till your hands feel almost clean
I don’t forgive the boy I wasted
But I can’t stay where he remains
So I whisper to these lonesome piles
“Thank you for your borrowed pain” (oh)
[Chorus]
I’ve been throwing my life away
One small memory at a time
Every goodbye in a black‑tied knot
On a sidewalk
Left behind
If starting over means this ache
I’ll still step onto this train
Leave fifteen bags of the person I was
For the dawn to take with the rain