Who the Hell Would I Be?
(Verse 1)
The mirror shows a steady gaze, a face you think you know
You nod your head and walk away, watchin' my easy flow
But the earth itself just crumbled, the first time I felt the deep, cold chill
When I lost the only bedrock, the one that held me still
I lost my dad, a silence loud, where his guiding voice used to be
I'm just a boat adrift at sea, no harbor welcoming me.
(Chorus)
If I wasn't me, who the hell would I be?
Just another ghost fading out to sea?
A heart of glass, a well that's run dry?
If I wasn't me, I don't know who I could try.
The hurt is deeper than I allow you to see, down this lonely road
The promises I made and the promises that broke my heavy load.
(Verse 2)
It started slow, a cruel cascade, a slow unraveling begun
Lost a day that I can't define, a shadow crossed the sun
Then the very next year, the light went out, the second piece of my whole
When I lost my mother, lost the warmth that always held my soul
My anchor gone, my comfort fled, twice hit by the cruel hand of fate
And my life became an empty room, I only felt the weight.
(Bridge)
The world kept spinning faster, to kick a man when he's low
Lost the job, the steady paycheck, the only place I had to go
I felt the metal crumple, heard the terrible, grinding sound
Crashed the car, another piece of solid ground
Gone, gone, gone, every single thing I used to call my own.
(Verse 3)
And my own blood, my sisters, they watched me stumble and fall
They built a wall, a high, cold barrier, they wouldn't answer my call
They’d rather cut the cord clean off than lend a helping hand
Left me stranded in the desert of this empty, barren land
They judged my failures, not my pain, they sealed my lonely fate
And that's a loss that cuts the deepest, born of love and now of hate.
(Guitar Solo - A slow, deeply emotional bend that climbs into a sharp, raw cry.)
(Chorus)
If I wasn't me, who the hell would I be?
Just another ghost fading out to sea?
A heart of glass, a well that's run dry?
If I wasn't me, I don't know who I could try.
The hurt is deeper than I allow you to see, down this lonely road
The promises I made and the promises that broke my heavy load.
(Outro)
So you look at me... and you smile at the lie...
You have no idea... no idea... how deep...
But I'm still standin'... yeah, I'm still standin'...
And if I wasn't me... well, I guess I'd still have to be.
(The music fades out slowly, leaving a stark, quiet emptiness.)
