I Miss The Idea Of You

I thought it was you

Turns out it was what we could be

You fit in places no one did

Said the things I needed then

I filled the gaps you didn’t see

With something you could never be

We talked like we had time to spare

Like nothing else could interfere

But looking back it’s clear to me

I heard what I wanted to hear

I wasn’t seeing you

I was seeing through

I don’t miss you

I miss the idea of you

The version that I built in my mind

I don’t need you

Like I thought I used to

I just miss what I thought I could find

You never said the things I thought

I just connected dots

Between the silence and the space

I made a picture I could chase

And every time you pulled away

I gave you reasons you would stay

But now I see it clearer

You were never really there

I held onto something false

That I created on my own

I don’t miss you

I miss the idea of you

The version that I built in my mind

I don’t need you

Like I thought I used to

I just miss what I thought I could find

If you walked back in today

I don’t know what I’d say

‘Cause you don’t match the memory

That I held onto anyway

I don’t miss you

I miss the idea of you

Something softer than the truth

I don’t need you

Like I thought I used to

I just needed something new

Guess I made you what you weren’t

That’s the lesson that I learned