[Verse 1]
I wash my face, but it won’t come clean,
A stranger stares back silently.
They call me wrong, they call it sin—
But they don’t live inside my skin.
I wear the clothes that let me breathe,
But they just want the ghost of me.
I fake a smile, I say “I’m fine,”
But nothing fits and none of it’s mine.
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[Chorus 1]
I just wanna sleep and not wake up,
Float through dreams where I’m enough.
No more mirrors, no more shame,
No more playing their cruel game.
If being me is not allowed…
Then maybe I’ll just lay it down.
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[Verse 2]
They say I’m loved, but not like this—
They love the mask, not what they miss.
No color, truth, or change allowed,
I’m only safe if I’m not loud.
Their silence cuts, their words are worse,
Each “she” they say feels like a curse.
I’m screaming soft where no one sees,
I’m tired of begging just to be.
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[Chorus 2]
I just wanna sleep and not wake up,
Drift into stars and give it up.
No more hiding, no more fight,
No more praying every night.
If love means breaking who I am...
Then maybe they don’t give a damn.
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[Bridge — szept, ambient break, cisza z pianinem]
But in the dark, there’s still a spark—
Someone out there sees these scars.
A voice that whispers through the pain:
"You are real. You are not to blame."
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[Final Chorus — spokojnie, potem crescendo]
I don’t wanna sleep just to escape,
I want a world that lets me wake.
One where I can breathe and be,
Where “me” is something safe to see.
So I hold on with shaking hands,
To quiet dreams and rebel plans...
A boy, a soul, still burning through—
Even if they won’t see it’s true.
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[Outro — minimal piano, szum, oddech]
Tired... but not gone… still here… still me.
