The Little Me

Verse 1]

I kept the silence like they said I should

Smiled through the pain, tried to be so good

But deep in the dark, where the light won’t stay

I buried the screams, and I looked away

I don’t know how, I don’t know why

I’m still breathing, trying to survive

It’s only when I’m dreaming

Sometimes I just wanna hide, can’t face the night

I try and I try, but it don’t feel right

Just hold me close, I’m breaking

Momma, you were hurting too, I see it in your eyes

But daddy, where were you when I cried each night?

To the child I used to be…

I’m sorry, you deserved to be free

I’m scared of love, I push it away

Afraid it might hurt the very same way

To all of the people I’ve turned from the door

It’s not that I don’t care—I just can’t anymore

I don’t know how, I don’t know why

The past still whispers every night

It’s only when I’m hurting

Sometimes I just wanna scream, can’t find the light

I fight and I fight to feel alright

Please don’t let go, I’m healing

Momma, I still love you, even through the pain

And daddy, I still wait for you to explain

To the ones who never knew…

I’m sorry, but I was breaking too

Little me, so brave and small

You should’ve never had to fall

But now I’m standing, piece by piece

Learning how to set you free

So if I cry through the night, know it’s okay

I’m stronger now, though I lost my way

Just hold my hand, I’m feeling

I’m sorry that I’m scared again, I promise I’ll get help

It wasn’t my fault, and I’m learning to love myself

To the little girl inside of me…

I swear one day, you will finally be free