[Verse 1]
I keep a chair for the doubt by the side of my bed
It counts every word I should've left unsaid
The ceiling knows names that I never confess
I wear a calm face over all of this mess
I learned how to laugh when the room gets too loud
How to stand in a doorway and look unbowed
But the lock turns twice when I walk through the door
And the man in the mirror starts keeping score
[Pre-Chorus]
I can outrun a room, I can bury the proof
But I can't leave myself when I step out of the truth
[Chorus]
There's a war inside, and it knows my name
One side wants peace, one side feeds the flame
I keep both hands on the wheel while the road divides
If I make it through tonight, I won't have to hide
There's a war inside, but I'm still alive
With a cracked-up heart and a reason to try
Let the walls come down, let the old fear slide
I won't lose myself to the war inside
[Verse 2]
My father left a toolbox under the stairs
I open every drawer like the answer is there
A bent little wrench and a handful of nails
Nothing that teaches you how not to fail
So I build from the pieces I wanted to burn
Give a name to the lesson each scar had to learn
My friends see the sparks when I finally speak
They don't see the week that it took me to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
I can turn every wound into something to prove
But healing isn't weakness, it's choosing to move
[Chorus]
There's a war inside, and it knows my name
One side wants peace, one side feeds the flame
I keep both hands on the wheel while the road divides
If I make it through tonight, I won't have to hide
There's a war inside, but I'm still alive
With a cracked-up heart and a reason to try
Let the walls come down, let the old fear slide
I won't lose myself to the war inside
[Bridge]
If I fall, let me fall where the truth can find me
If I break, let the broken parts remind me
I am more than the voice that says I won't survive
I am here, I am here, I am here tonight
[Final Chorus]
There's a war inside, and it knows my name
But I won't hand it every inch of my brain
I keep both hands on the wheel while the road divides
And I choose the next breath, I choose the next side
There's a war inside, but I'm still alive
With a cracked-up heart and a reason to try
Let the walls come down, let the old fear slide
I won't lose myself to the war inside
[Outro]
I won't lose myself
I won't lose myself
Not tonight