Since fifteen, I been screaming in my head,
No one listened, they just left me for dead.
Bottle in my hand, pain in my chest,
Tryna drown the voices that never let me rest.
Momma didn’t know, and my mates didn’t care,
Smiles on my face, but I was dying in despair.
Started sippin’ young, thought it’d ease my soul,
But it only made the darkness take control.
I been fightin’ with my demons, yeah, I can’t get no help,
Tryna fix the damage that I did to myself.
Since fifteen, I been broken and numb,
Drinkin’ and smokin’ just to feel like someone.
Now I’m twenty-three with a fucked-up mind,
Mental scars deep, they ain’t hard to find.
Wish somebody cared, wish they saw that pain,
But all I ever got was more hurt and shame.
Every sip another memory I can’t face,
Every hit another chance I can’t replace.
They say “speak up,” but they don’t understand,
When I tried to open up, no one lent a hand.
Now my trust gone, my faith all burnt,
Tryna heal, but the lessons still ain’t learnt.
Addiction ain’t a game, it’s a war with your soul,
Once you start fallin’, it’s hard to take control.
I been fightin’ with my demons, yeah, I can’t get no help,
Tryna fix the damage that I did to myself.
Since fifteen, I been broken and numb,
Drinkin’ and smokin’ just to feel like someone.
Now I’m twenty-three with a fucked-up mind,
Mental scars deep, they ain’t hard to find.
Wish somebody cared, wish they saw that pain,
But all I ever got was more hurt and shame.
I’m tryna change, but it’s hard when you lost,
Every little step feels like it’s got a cost.
I don’t need pity, I just need peace,
A chance for my mind to finally release.
[Outro]
Since fifteen, yeah, I walked that road,
Carrying the weight that nobody knows.
Maybe one day I’ll find that light,
But for now, I’m just tryna survive the night.
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BKNova
