Trapped Inside

Another morning, same old fight,

Mind says go but body says no,

Plans I made the night before,

Crumble when the pain begins to grow.

I tell my hands to pick this up,

I tell my legs to carry me,

But signals lost along the way,

My body won't set my spirit free.

I'm trapped inside this shell of pain,

Prisoner of my own skin,

Fighting battles no one sees,

While the razor wire cuts within,

Trapped inside, trapped inside,

Where my spirit pounds the walls.

Every nerve's a lightning strike,

Pins and needles turn to knives,

Muscle screaming, joints on fire,

This is what my body gives.

Simple tasks become mountains,

Every step's a calculated move,

What used to be so natural,

Every action I must choose.

I'm trapped inside this shell of pain,

Prisoner of my own skin,

Fighting battles no one sees,

While the razor wire cuts within,

Trapped inside, trapped inside,

Where my spirit pounds the walls.

They say you look fine today,

If only they could feel inside,

The storm that's raging constantly,

The hurt I've learned to hide.

Wake up every morning like I'm going to war,

Body's the battlefield, can't take much more,

Invisible enemy that nobody sees,

Burning like fire from my head to my knees,

Pills on the counter, doctors on speed dial,

Fake a smile, pretend it's worth while,

But inside I'm screaming, inside I'm breaking,

Every single breath that I'm taking is aching,

Mind over matter? That's what they say,

But matter's got my mind locked away,

Trapped in a prison made of flesh and bone,

Fighting this battle, fighting alone.

Some days I'm a warrior,

Some days I just survive,

But every morning that I rise,

Shows I'm still alive.

Sleep becomes my only friend,

But even rest brings no relief,

Dreams of running, dreams of dancing,

Wake up to the same old grief.

Good days feel like miracles,

Bad days feel like endless night,

Learning to measure victories,

In the smallest acts of might.

I'm trapped inside this shell of pain,

Prisoner of my own skin,

But I'm still here fighting every day,

Though the razor wire cuts within,

Trapped inside, trapped inside,

But my spirit won't give in,

Trapped inside, but still alive,

And that's how I will win.