[Verse 1]
I learned how to cry without making a sound
How to fall apart with people around
There’s a war in my chest but you look at my face
And tell me you don’t see anything out of place
I’m pounding on glass from the other side
Screaming so loud but it stays in my mind
You see me standing so you think I’m okay
God I wish you could feel me for just one day
[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t need another reason
I don’t need another name
I just need somebody to believe me
When I say I’m in pain
[Chorus]
Can you hear me
I’m screaming on the inside
Can you see me
I’m right here in plain sight
I’m holding myself together
While something in me pulls me apart
How much more do I have to give
Before you believe this is hard
I’m tired of begging my own mind
To please just leave me alone
I don’t wanna disappear
I just want to come home
To a body that feels safe
To a head that isn’t war
Haven’t I given enough
What do you still need me for
[Verse 2]
Every feeling comes like a loaded gun
Love becomes terror when I might lose someone
One little silence becomes goodbye
And I know it doesn’t make sense
But neither does the panic inside
Then morning comes and I’m ashamed again
Cleaning up the pieces of who I’ve been
Saying I’m sorry for bleeding on hands
That never understood where the wound began
[Bridge]
Believe me
I’m not trying to be this way
Believe me
I would give anything for an ordinary day
Where love could just be love
And leaving didn’t feel like death
Where I didn’t have to fight myself
For every fucking breath
I have given you my childhood
My relationships
My sleep
My anger
My tears
Every terrified piece of me
Isn’t that enough
[Final Chorus]
CAN YOU HEAR ME
I’M SCREAMING ON THE INSIDE
I’m standing right in front of you
Why can’t anybody see me
I don’t need you to save me
I just need you to believe
There is something inside of me
That I am fighting desperately
I don’t wanna disappear
I just want the hurting to stop
I want to know who I am
When I’m not fighting my own thoughts
So if you can’t hear the screaming
Just sit here next to me
You don’t have to understand it
Just please
Believe me.