Somewhere Underneath

Somewhere Underneath

Verse 1

I don't remember when I disappeared,

Maybe somewhere in the hardest year.

I got so good at making it through,

I stopped asking what I wanted to do.

There are photographs I barely know,

Of someone I was a lifetime ago.

She had plans I forgot how to keep,

I wonder if she's somewhere underneath.

Pre-Chorus

'Cause loss doesn't only take who you love,

Sometimes it takes who you were.

And I've spent so long surviving the silence,

I forgot I had a voice of my own.

Chorus

But I'm finding her again,

In the songs I used to play,

In the way I laugh too loud,

In the little things that stayed.

I'm finding pieces of myself

I thought went missing when you did.

Maybe grief changed everything,

But it didn't take all of me with it.

I'm not who I was before,

And maybe I don't need to be.

There's still somebody here—

Somewhere underneath.

Verse 2

I thought healing meant going back,

Finding the girl before the cracks.

Before empty chairs and closing doors,

Before goodbye meant something more.

But maybe she was never meant to stay,

Maybe losing changed me in its way.

And I can miss what I used to know

Without wishing I could go back home.

Pre-Chorus

I've carried ghosts into every room,

Like letting go would mean losing them twice.

But maybe I can carry their love

Without giving them the rest of my life.

Chorus

I'm finding her again,

In the songs I used to play,

In the way I laugh too loud,

In the little things that stayed.

I'm finding pieces of myself

I thought went missing when you did.

Maybe grief changed everything,

But it didn't take all of me with it.

I'm not who I was before,

And maybe I don't need to be.

There's still somebody here—

Somewhere underneath.

Bridge

I can miss you and still be happy.

I can love you and still move on.

I can carry every memory

Without making grief my home.

And I don't have to feel guilty

For the days that don't hurt anymore.

Maybe living isn't leaving you—

Maybe that's what you loved me for.

Final Chorus

So I'm finding me again,

Not the girl I used to be,

But the woman who survived it all

And still believes in dreams.

I'm taking back the parts of me

I buried just to make it through.

And I'll always carry what I've lost,

But I get to carry myself too.

No, I'm not who I was before—

There's something stronger underneath.

After everything I've lost,

I'm finally finding me.

Outro

I thought I disappeared with you.

I didn't.

I was just underneath.