[Intro]
[Muffled heartbeat kick drum pulses over a deep, underwater synth hum]
Deep water... deep water... (pitched down)
[Verse 1]
The silence is heavy, it’s pulling me under (Pulling me down...)
No lightning left, and no room for the thunder
I wrapped myself tight in a blanket of stone (Of stone...)
Pretending I’m safe just because I’m alone
But the walls I built up to keep out the sting (Keep out the pain)
Are the very same walls keeping out everything
[Pre-Chorus]
[The kick drum drops out, leaving just a cold, sweeping sub-bass rumble]
I should’ve called, I should’ve cried
But I locked myself up in this cage made of mind (Locked away...)
Holding my breath so you won't see me break
How much of this numbness can one spirit take?
[Chorus]
[The filter opens slightly, a crisp but distant rimshot hits the groove]
And I’m drowning in pride, sinking so deep (Sinking down...)
Holding onto secrets that I shouldn't keep
I won't let you see what you did to my soul (Won't let you see)
So I let the cold water take total control
Yeah, I’m drowning in pride (Drowning inside...)
Drowning in pride
[Verse 2]
[Ambient synths swell, panning slowly from left to right]
It’s safer down here where the feelings are numb (So numb...)
Where the memories fade and the shadows don't come
I could admit that I’m completely torn (I'm broken...)
But I’d rather freeze in the dark of the storm
Than give you the pleasure of watching me crawl (No, never)
So I’ll stay at the bottom, ignoring it all
[Pre-Chorus 2]
[The sub-bass begins to pulse faster, mimicry of a rising panic attack]
The pressure is building, it's squeezing my chest (Can't breathe...)
I tell myself hiding away is the best
But bubbles of truth keep on rising above
How did I trade your devotion for blood?
[Bridge]
[The underwater filter snaps open completely, introducing a distorted, driving sub-bass and an echoing hi-hat]
It hurts more to stay than to let it all go
But my ego is shouting what you'll never know (Never know)
I’m choking on words that I should’ve just screamed
Sinking away from the ghost of our dream (Ghost of our dream...)
Look at me now, am I winning the war?
When I don’t even know what I’m fighting you for!
[Chorus]
[Full atmosphere now, layered with pitched-down vocal harmonies]
And I’m drowning in pride, sinking so deep (Sinking down...)
Holding onto secrets that I shouldn't keep
I won't let you see what you did to my soul (Won't let you see)
So I let the cold water take total control
Yeah, I’m drowning in pride (Drowning inside...)
Drowning in pride
[Outro]
[The kick drum stops. Synth pads slowly fade into an empty, static hiss]
Just floating here...
Too proud to reach out.
(Too proud to save myself...)
[The static morphs into a clean, dry electric guitar strum]
MVSSY_LVND
