The Love You Give

Pulled into the spiral where our shadows dance,

Your voice cuts through my armor, puts my heart in a trance.

There’s a war inside my chest—between the ache and the desire,

I keep mistaking all your toxins for a holy kind of fire.

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And still somehow I stay alive,

Breathing through the fractures of your lies.

Reaching for the part of me that’s true—

Even when I lose myself in you.

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‘Cause it’s you… the venom and the remedy,

Tearing me apart, but it feels like destiny.

A toxic touch I can’t undo—

But I still find the truth in you.

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(Tight, syncopated chugs. Airy synth above. Drums slam into halftime.)

“Just let me feel something—anything.” (distant scream)

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I’m screaming in the quiet where my doubts reside,

Trying to break the cycle I keep running to hide.

Your chaos wraps around me, but I still breathe—

Healing through the hurt you never see.

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‘Cause it’s you… in the madness and the calm,

Even when it’s killing me, you still feel like home somehow.

In your storm, I lose and find my place—

Your chaos and comfort, tangled in grace.

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Lost in the aftershock, but I won’t fall,

Your toxic love still echoes through it all.

It’s because of you, I learn to stay—

Living with the poison… day by day.

In the quiet after everything… when the noise fades out,

I feel the weight of every truth I tried to live without.

If love is just a lesson carved in scars we can’t erase,

Then you’re the mark that lingers still, the ghost I learn to face.

I whisper to the silence, hoping it remembers me—

The parts I lost to keep you close, the parts I set free.

And though the poison settles deeper than I planned,

I’m learning how to breathe again…

Learning how to stand.