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The room smells like smoke and regret

Mascara runs down a cigarette

My hands are baptized in cheap whiskey rain

Tryin’ to drown out guilt, tryin’ to numb the shame

The clock keeps preachin’ that I’m runnin’ out

So I pour another just to drown it out

I talk to God like He don’t hear

Then curse His name when He gets too near

Chorus

I’m drownin’ in whiskey, goin’ under slow

Prayin’ for mercy I don’t think I deserve though

Every breath tastes like sin and smoke

This bottle’s my cross and I’m losin’ the rope

Yeah, I’m sinkin’ deep in these liquid lies

With hell in my chest and tears in my eyes

Verse 2

Mama said, “Girl, don’t make this your grave”

But I dug it deeper with the drinks I chased

There’s a Bible somewhere under my bed

Haven’t touched it since the words turned red

I used to kneel, now I just fall

Face-first into the bathroom wall

I hear church bells in my head at night

Can’t tell if they’re warnin’ or invitin’ me inside

Chorus

I’m drownin’ in whiskey, lungs full of regret

Beggin’ forgiveness I ain’t earned yet

I whisper “amen” just to feel okay

Then pour another and push God away

Yeah, I’m treadin’ water in a losin’ fight

With the bottle keepin’ me company through this long and lonely night

Bridge

If You’re still listenin’, God, here’s the truth

I don’t need heaven, I just need through

I don’t need answers, don’t need a sign

Just help me survive this one more night

I’m scared if I’m sober I’ll feel it all

But I’m dyin’ slow every time I fall

If grace is real, don’t let go

I’m tired of sinkin’—I wanna float

Final Chorus

I’m drownin’ in whiskey, but I reached my hand

Through the dark water, toward Your plan

If You can love what I’ve become

Then maybe this ain’t where my story’s done

Yeah, pull me up from these broken seas

Wash me clean of what’s killin’ me

Outro

The glass is empty, the room’s still black

But I whispered Your name… and You whispered back

I ain’t free yet, but I’m on my knees

For the first time, I wanna breathe