[Verse 1]
You said I was lucky
Just to be in your bed
Turned my heart into homework
You kept changing what you meant
I learned all your shadows
Memorized every rule
You called it devotion
I called it losing myself to you
[Pre-Chorus]
But I kept receipts in my ribcage
Every time you made me small
Now I’m packing up my patience
Leaving pictures on your wall
[Chorus]
I rise from the ashes of the girl you tried to break
You don’t get to call it love
When all you did was take
The next man that loves me will be soft with all my scars
Gentle
Kind
And gracious with my shaking heart
He’ll hold every version of the woman I have been
Loving
Understanding
I will be seen
[Verse 2]
Used to shrink in the doorway
Check my tone
Check my face
Walk on eggshell confessions
Just to keep you feeling safe
You dressed control up as caring
Raised your voice
Called it passion
I bit down on my questions
Till my tongue forgot compassion
[Pre-Chorus]
But I stitched my name in my own skin
So I’d know it when I heal
Now my body is a border
You don’t get to cross or steal
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
He’ll listen when I’m quiet
Won’t flinch when I cry
Won’t make me prove I’m worthy
Just to stay by my side
I’m saving all my softness
For hands that never shove
For eyes that never question
If I’m enough to love
[Chorus]