It shouldn’t matter

[Verse 1]
We were fine in the daytime
When nothing asked too much
You were easy to be around
You were easy to love
But the nights kept changing you
And I learned what that meant
I kept hoping you’d come back
From wherever you went

[Pre-Chorus]
I told myself it was nothing
Just another phase
But some things don’t get better
They just wear you away

[Chorus]
It shouldn’t matter but it does
That I was never enough
I stayed up waiting for your love
While you were giving it up
I tried to hold us together
While you were coming undone
I called you boy because of you
Because I thought you were the one

[Verse 2]
I knew the sound of your breathing
When you couldn’t sleep
I knew the look in your eyes
When you’d disappear from me
I kept saying “tomorrow”
Like it still had a chance
But tomorrow kept showing me
What we didn’t have

[Pre-Chorus]
I learned the hard kind of loving
That doesn’t get returned
Some lessons come easy
This one had to burn

[Chorus]
It shouldn’t matter but it does
That I wanted you to stay
That I needed you sober
In every quiet way
I tried to love you through it
Tried to save what I could
But loving you was losing me
And I knew that wasn’t good

[Bridge (strip the drums)]
The nights were long and restless
I barely slept at all
I kept replaying every word
Like it might stop the fall
I don’t hate you, I don’t blame you
I just finally see
I can’t be what you need
If you can’t be here with me

[Final Chorus]
It shouldn’t matter but it does
That I still wish you well
That I hope you find your way back
From wherever you fell
I loved you more than I could help
And that’s the truth I know
I didn’t stop loving you
I just had to let you go

[Outro (space, half-time feel)]
Because of you
I found myself

92 BPM modern electric pop-soul. Clean glossy electric guitar with chorus/phaser, smooth late-night groove, guitar solos