Help me Jesus

In a world 
Existing alone 
Nobody sees me 
Nobody hears 
All of these years 
My entire life 
Existing to be here 
Existing alone 
Yearning to be loved 
By someone I want 
But always finding myself 
Here by myself 
Alone in my mind 
Alone in my life 
Never being someone number two 
Between God and you 
Wondering why 
God even put me here 
This world is so lonely 
Jesus why did you create me
I’m so lonely 
Why am I here 
My whole life 
Filled why sadness 
Misery and pain 
Am I doing this all in vain 
What is my purpose 
What is my life here 
I don’t understand Lord 
Was I just created
To serve others 
While being overlooked 
Sacrificing my mind and my body 
For people that about even see me 
Or even care 
That I’m here 
I’m only a convenient part 
When they need 
Then throw me away 
My life doesn’t make sense 
Always isolated alone 
Thirty three years Lord 
I just want to go to my real home 
Having to deal with pain and sickness 
Breaking from the pressure 
Because I don’t matter
My suffering goes un noticed 
Just an inconvenience 
I’m just a burden to them 
Existing in silence 
Broken inside my head 
Feeling so used
Feeling my heart aching for you 
He doesn’t love me 
I’m only being used 
I’m tired of the pain Lord 
Please show me your plan 
I don’t know how much longer 
I can do this 
Is he my man 
Was it you in the clouds 
Because this man has broken me 
Over and over again 
He keeps showing me no love 
Over and over again 
Treating my wants like a burden 
While pampering him self 
I’m so broken Jesus 
I’m so broken 
I want true love 
Help me Jesus 
He used me 
He uses me 

Warrior, sad, angry, woman