[Verse]
I tuck you in while my own nights still screaming
No manual no map just a cheap ceiling light
Fridge note says breathe but the bill says pay me
I google how to love while you sleep tight
And every time you cry I hear my old ghosts cheering for a fight
[Chorus]
I never had a dad I just got louder walls
No one showed me how to catch a kid before he falls
Now I’m learning on the run learning on the run
I break what I was taught to be more than what I’ve done
I never had a dad but I swear you’re getting one
[Verse 2]
You ask me what a grandpa is I say a story that left
A coat on a chair shoes by a door but no face to forget
Your homework on the table my homework in my chest
Trying to spell out future with these hands that only knew unrest
I burn the old rules in the sink watch the past turn to breath
[Prechorus]
I don’t know how to guide you but I know how not to leave
So I tape my fear to the mirror and call it a new belief
[Chorus]
I never had a dad I just got louder walls
No one showed me how to catch a kid before she falls
Now I’m learning on the run learning on the run
I break what I was taught to be more than what I’ve done
I never had a dad but I swear you’re getting one
[Bridge]
Is it okay that my hug still shakes a little
That I flinch at your joy cause I never saw gentle grow tall
I’m building us a sky out of late apologies and cheap McNugget dinners
Calling every small laugh a miracle calling every small step a brawl
Against the mirror where a stranger swore I’d give you nothing at all