Darkest time.

Im lost but trying.

Life has turned into a purgatory in paradise.

A lonely existence. I feel like everyone is watching and waiting for me to end it, but im not.

Mornings full of tears and evenings to follow till i sleep. [Loop] The harsh reality of a cold world. It was seemingly over couldn't think of how to even go on. Lost i was so so lost in shock unbelievable what happened. I lost my favorite person. My best friend. A hero to me and this country. Defending defeating but getting defeated by a black widow. Gold digging bum bitch. One day I will avenged him. She will face her judgment. Day in court. [Vers] I know im being humbled for something atleast i hope i am and not being strengthened for something worse. Life is beautiful but you gotta be able to see the beauty even through darkness atleast smile and smell the flowers as you go by. There alive and beautiful even wilted ones [Loop] The harsh reality of a cold world. It was seemingly over couldn't think of how to even go on. Lost i was so so lost in shock unbelievable what happened. I lost my favorite person. My best friend. A hero to me and hus country. Defending defeating but getting defeated by a black widow. Gold digging bum bitch. One day I will avenged him. She will face her judgment. Day in court. [Vers] I pray i beg to god give me the path or let me know im on it atleast. I've lost so much. My father and seemingly my complete family and most friends. How do I redeem my life and see the beauty. I want to see it again so i can share it with those who believe in me. I want that beautiful feeling of being loved and to be in love. [Loop] The harsh reality of a cold world. It was seemingly over couldn't think of how to even go on. Lost i was so so lost in shock unbelievable what happened. I lost my favorite person. My best friend. A hero to me and hus country. Defending defeating but getting defeated by a black widow. Gold digging bum bitch. One day I will avenged him. She will face her judgment. Day in court. [Vers] I need stability with out evil trying to take it away. I look around and it is beautiful but not so much to me right now. Nothing is beautiful with out someone to share with. Triles tribulations growth. I just want to find my true North. My life is so messed up right now. I don't want to hurt anymore. [Loop] The harsh reality of a cold world. It was seemingly over couldn't think of how to even go on. Lost i was so so lost in shock unbelievable what happened. I lost my favorite person. My best friend. A hero to me and hus country. Defending defeating but getting defeated by a black widow. Gold digging bum bitch. One day I will avenged him. She will face her judgment. Day in court. [Vers] Those were the darkest days of my life put my hands up gave up. Couldn't do it alone. Nobody came to hepl teaching me that the ones I thought cared didn't really give a fukk. Sad reality was happening. But all of the sudden she's popped into my life loving me. Making me feel agin.