Dont let go

Well hopefully you will read these.. it takes me too long to write.. I love you.. so much... and i know that you are trying to understand me, and that it is because you love me you try. And I bet it is frustrating not being able to drop every thing to be by my side to physically carry me out of the dark. It was frustrating for me not being able to do that for you as well. But in all these years we have managed to stick together through all of it.. but this time I dont think either of us were ready for such a tragedy.. thats alot of weight for you to carry, I should recognize that as well.. I hope that we can figure it out. I need you..even though you dont see it or feel it.. I do need you .. I said it before. We should be fighting this together.. i wish you would just forgive me because im really trying.. but if you really dont need me anymore like you said.. Say it to me again. And let those be the last words..but dont look back at the devastation... and if that is the case... my last words to you are..

You are my hero. I can't even describe in any amount of words how much i love you, without condition.. in every way, shape or form love can be described is what i feeI. And i am blessed to have been able to love someone this way. My dearest friend, my soul mate, my sister, my partner, my lover.. I love you.. until my last breath..