How I Fucking Break and Do it Again

In this hell I keep spinning, lost within my own mind

Every breath a struggle, trying to leave it all behind

I break, I shatter, I crumble under the fracturing of my mind

Pain’s a relentless fucking cycle, I can’t escape my fate

Memories, scars, they haunt me in endless replay

Drowning in fucking suffering, trying to find my way

They don’t see the chaos, the storm inside my god damn head

Judgment and rejection, words that they’ve all fucking said

But I carry this burden, hidden deep within

A torment so heavy, it's wearing me fucking thin

How I fucking break, then do it all again

Dealing with the fucking agony, suffering from the pain

This burning hell, a curse I can't mother fucking shake

Lost in the darkness, trying not to break shit

(Suffocating, choking on the air I breathe)

This cycle of torment, I can’t mother fucking escape

Spirits whispering, sadness I conceal

Deep-seeded torment, wounds that never fucking heal

Preach your fucking positivity, but I can't see the mother fucking light

Suffocating shadows, fighting for my life

The world keeps fucking accusing, they’ll never understand

A deep-rooted anguish, can't be fixed by any fucking hand

Carrying burdens, as silent screams collide

A hell that’s fucking eternal, nowhere to hide

How I fucking break, then do it all again

Dealing with the fucking agony, suffering from the pain

This burning hell, a curse I can't shake

Lost in the darkness, trying not to break

(Suffocating, choking on the air I breathe)

This cycle of torment, I can’t escape

Every loss, every rejection, feels like a fucking knife twisting

Splitting open wounds, inflicting all this strife

I fucking scream inside, no one hears my cries

A world unkind, I mask these desperate lies

So I break, I shatter, then I try once more

Endlessly fighting, a fucking war at my core

In this hell of my making, I will not pretend

Facing my torment, praying for the mother fucking end