Hands Up to the Hollow

I’ve been running in circles, wearing out my mind,

Every step I’m taking feels like I’m falling behind.

Pressure on my chest like a building coming down,

Screaming in a crowded room but nobody hears a sound.

I’m cracked at the edges, breaking where I stand,

Trying to hold the line with shaking hands.

The harder I push, the worse it seems—

Feels like I’m drowning in my own damn dreams.

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And I’m choking on the words I never said,

Echoes in the dark keep pounding in my head.

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’Cause I’m throwing my hands up, I can’t take this anymore,

I’m done with the fights that I’ve been dying for.

Standing on the edge with a heart that’s hollow,

If I fall tonight, who’s left to follow?

I’m giving up, giving up, screaming at the sky,

No more pretending I’m alright.

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I’ve been stitched together by the promises I broke,

Trying to breathe through all this anger and smoke.

I keep telling myself it’ll fade someday,

But the pain keeps carving out another way.

Every word I swallow just becomes a lie,

Every tear I hide becomes another cry.

I’m stuck in a war I never chose—

Fighting shadows, taking blows.

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And I’m choking on the words I never said,

Echoes in the dark keep pounding in my head.

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’Cause I’m throwing my hands up, I can’t take this anymore,

I’m done with the fights that I’ve been dying for.

Standing on the edge with a heart that’s hollow,

If I fall tonight, who’s left to follow?

I’m giving up, giving up, screaming at the sky,

No more pretending I’m alright.

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I’m sick of being broken, sick of being bruised,

Sick of hearing everybody tell me what to do.

I’m a time bomb ticking with a heartbeat fading,

A thousand voices in my head—

all communicating:

“You’re not enough.”

“You’ll never be okay.”

But I’m done playing victim

To the fear I obey.

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Is there something left in me worth saving?

Or am I just a ghost of who I’ve been… fading?

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I’m throwing my hands up, I can’t take this anymore,

I’m done with the fights that I’ve been dying for.

Standing on the edge with a heart that’s hollow,

If I fall tonight, who’s left to follow?

I’m giving up, giving up, screaming at the sky,

No more pretending…

No more pretending I’m alright.