[Intro]
I woke up with one key on the table
And a silence I was never built to hold
[Verse 1]
Your picture left a pale square on the wall
The coffee cup still carries your lipstick stain
I packed my name into a cardboard box
And dragged it through the rooms that knew us both
Every promise turned to dust in my hands
Every map we drew was torn at the bend
Now the road is mine, but I hate the view
Nothing feels like mine without you
[Pre-Chorus]
I cut the cord, but the wire still burns
I shut the door, but the whole house turns
[Chorus]
I hate that I have to start all over again
Relearn my own face, rebuild what you wrecked
I was a home, now I’m an empty address
With a fist full of ashes and nothing left
I’ll find my way, but I’ll never pretend
I don’t hate that I have to start all over again
[Verse 2]
New number, new bed, new side of the street
I pass the old bar and grind my teeth
Friends say, “You’re free,” like freedom is clean
They don’t see the wreckage underneath
I wear this loneliness under my skin
A secondhand armor that cuts when I bend
If I’m becoming somebody brand new
Why does every piece still point back to you?
[Pre-Chorus]
I cut the cord, but the wire still burns
I shut the door, but the whole house turns
[Chorus]
I hate that I have to start all over again
Relearn my own face, rebuild what you wrecked
I was a home, now I’m an empty address
With a fist full of ashes and nothing left
I’ll find my way, but I’ll never pretend
I don’t hate that I have to start all over again
[Breakdown]
Tear out the roots
Bury the proof
I won’t be the man
You left in this room
No more waiting
No more blame
I’ll crawl from the ruins
And answer my name
[Bridge]
Maybe the first step is meant to hurt
Maybe the ground has to shift beneath the dirt
I can miss you without surrendering me
I can lose the past and still learn to breathe
[Final Chorus]
I hate that I had to start all over again
But I found my own pulse underneath the wreck
I was a home, now I’m building it back
Brick by brick with a heart attack
I’ll find my way, and I’ll carry the scars
They can’t decide who I am or who I was
I still hate that I had to start all over again
But this time, the ending belongs to me
[Outro]
One key on the table
A door I can open
A life I can choose