## Hook – Shared voice
I gave you all of my lifetimes in one life, now I’m broke on the floor,
You said “if you really love me, let me heal without this war.”
My heart keeps flippin’ this coin like fate gonna open a door,
Heads I hold on, tails I let go… it lands on its edge like before.
My chest is a **silent heartbeat**, beatin’ but I can’t feel sound,
Hurting heals and healing hurts, I taste both every round.
I’m forgotten to myself but never forgetting you now,
If I really wanna free you, I gotta free me somehow.
***
## Verse 1 – “Writing to the one I can’t let go”
You remember when I said “one last hit” and swore that I meant it?
You packed your memories in boxes ’cause my promises bent quick.[1][2]
I was chain‑smokin’ our history, callin’ it destiny,
You were cryin’ in the doorway, whisperin’, “This is killin’ me.”[1][3]
You ain’t leavin’ ’cause you hate me, you’re leavin’ ’cause you care,
You said, “If I stay, you’ll never change, you’ll just drown us in despair.”[4][5]
I keep two sides of the same coin sittin’ heavy in my palm,
One side got your face on it, the other say “move on.”[4]
I been writin’ you these letters I don’t send, just to cope,
Every page another relapse, every comma just a rope.[3]
I’m regretful in the margins, all the “sorry”s smear in ink,
I’m the reason that you suffered every time I wouldn’t think.[3][6]
If I love you like I claim, I can’t drag you through this fire,
So I’m learnin’ how to let you go without callin’ you a liar.
I’m not leavin’ ’cause I’m over you, I’m leavin’ ’cause I see
The only way you’ll really live is if you’re far away from me.
***
## Verse 2 – “Inside the pain, learning from it”
I’m the voice on the other side, stuck deep in the relapse,
Knees on splintered hardwood, beggin’ mercy from the flashbacks.[1][5]
This hurt is a teacher with blood on his hands,
He been drawin’ all my lessons in the dust and in the sand.
He said, “You think her silence is a sentence, but it’s surgery,
You keep callin’ it abandonment; I’m callin’ it emergency.”[7]
“Every time you begged her stay, you never saw her veins shake,
You were only watchin’ your own pulse, wonderin’ what your heart can take.”
So I sit inside the torment like a classroom with no door,
Let the shame and guilt surround me, take attendance on the floor.[3]
I can see the way she flinched when my mood would start to swing,
See the panic in her iris when my phone would start to ring.
This is where I learn that pain ain’t just mine, it’s contagious,
My addiction had a radius, it burned through all our pages.[1][4]
If I’m chained to never lettin’ go
(Two‑voice track, same persona, two angles of the same wound.)
