Disorder

For the longest time.
I thought I was just fine.
They need more time
To get use to my mind.

In the old days
I found many ways.
To get through my day.
No one would dare say.
But looking away.
One by one, no one stay.

(Let me explain)
(Infant, toddler  then young boy.)

I was hyper I was great.
Everyone gave me praise
"He is going far in life"
He will do well for himself.
what we know now no one new.
That my Brain was more confused.
And the impression I was leaving
Was so wrong, but I believed it.
Overwhelming, Hyperactive,
Motivation is a question .
Super quiet, super loud
Very sunny or dark cloud.
 
(Something is wrong with this child)
(Later in Life)

Teenager, young man young adult.
I was hyper but kept control.
Everyone gave me advise.
"If you want to go far in life."
(Control and compromise)
It will be the price.

what we know now no one new.
That my Brain was more confused.
And the impression I was leaving
Was so wrong, but I believed it.
Every day I'm more confuse
EVERY DAY I MISS the clues:
Overwhelming, Hyperactive,
Unmotivated, nonreactive.
Super quiet, super loud
Very sunny or dark cloud.
 
something wrong with this man.

It's a disorder...
Takes out of order.
Many capacities, abilities and qualities 
Of my day to day activities.
 what we know now, no one knew.
That my Brain is still confused.
Nothing I can do.
My brain is still confused.
.
 Overwhelming, Hyperactive,
Motivation still a question..
Super quiet, super loud.
Very sunny or dark cloud.

1950's