[Verse 1]
Third son out of four
Middle of the middle, I’m ignored
Hand-me-down dreams on the floor
They all fit them, but they cut me raw
Family photos, I’m half-cropped
Smiling on the edge, then I fall off
They talk plans like they talk stocks
I just nod, staring at the clock
Mama’s tired eyes on the bills
Daddy’s loud voice, quiet guilt
Big bro built a life on skill
Little bro still fresh, unspilled
Me? I’m stuck in between
Too old to be saved, too young to lead
My name said soft like it might bleed
Like they scared I’ll break if I’m seen
[Chorus]
I’m the third out of four, slipping away
Face in the crowd, colors gone gray
Everything numb, what do I say?
I can’t feel the ground, can’t find my way
I’m the third out of four, fading fast
Hands on the wheel, eyes on the past
Heart full of sand, it leaks too fast
Trying to hold on but I can’t get a grasp
[Verse 2]
Phone screen bright at 3 A.M.
Scroll to the bottom of the same old friends
Everybody posting their wins
I’m just posting, then deleting again
Unanswered texts in a row
Typing bubbles, then they let go
“Yo, you good?” I type “yeah, bro”
But the truth too heavy to show
College application came late
Left it on the desk for days
Ink dried up, lines half-made
Guess I’m scared of a “no” and afraid of a “stay”
I walk through my day like a ghost
Laugh on cue, then vanish from the jokes
They call my name and it echoes
Feels like talking through thick smoke
[Chorus]
I’m the third out of four, slipping away
Face in the crowd, colors gone gray
Everything numb, what do I say?
I can’t feel the ground, can’t find my way
I’m the third out of four, fading fast
Hands on the wheel, eyes on the past
Heart full of sand, it leaks too fast
Trying to hold on but I can’t get a grasp
[Bridge]
Do they see me sinking slow? (do they?)
Or just think I’m laying low?
If I scream inside my head
Will it shake these heavy walls, or just my bed?
I don’t want to be the one they miss
After I’m gone, then they reminisce
Want to feel real, not just exist
Somewhere between their pride and their list
[Chorus]
I’m the third out of four, slipping away
Face in the crowd, colors gone gray
Everything numb, what do I say?
I can’t feel the ground, can’t find my way
I’m the third out of four, please hear this call
If I reach out, will you catch my fall?
I’m here, I’m hurt, I’m still that kid
Trying to learn how to live, not just drift and forgive