Monster

Yeah…

Late nights, I stare at my reflection,

Don’t know if I’m the cure or infection.

Tryna run, but I’m trapped inside,

These voices never let me hide.

I feel the monster in my chest,

Crawlin’ out, won’t let me rest.

Every fear I tried to fight,

Turns to fire in the night.

I feel the monster, can’t escape,

My demons wear a friendly face.

And I don’t know who I’ve become,

But the monster’s won.

I been livin’ with the pressure,

Tryna fake a smile for the cameras.

Everyone say “keep your head up,”

But they don’t see what’s inside when I get up.

Bottle full of pain, I sip slow,

Heart cold, but the beat still glow.

In my mind there’s a war goin’ on,

And I’m losin’ every round I throw.

Can’t sleep, can’t breathe,

Every thought cuts deep.

I pray for peace,

But the monster won’t leave.

I feel the monster in my chest,

Crawlin’ out, won’t let me rest.

Every fear I tried to fight,

Turns to fire in the night.

I feel the monster, can’t escape,

My demons wear a friendly face.

And I don’t know who I’ve become,

But the monster’s won.

I smile in the mirror, it cracks back,

Every truth that I hide turns jet-black.

Mama said “boy, don’t lose your soul,”

But I lost it tryna stay in control.

They love the pain when it’s soundin’ nice,

Play my scars like a paradise.

But this ain’t art, this is therapy,

Tryna bleed out what’s left of me.

If I fall tonight, would you stay?

Or would you run like the rest, walk away?

I don’t need fame, I don’t need praise,

Just someone who sees through the haze.

I feel the monster in my chest,

Crawlin’ out, won’t let me rest.

Every fear I tried to fight,

Turns to fire in the night.

I feel the monster, can’t escape,

My demons wear a friendly face.

And I don’t know who I’ve become,

But the monster’s won.

Yeah…

Brian Music, turn the lights down low,

This is pain that nobody knows.

If I break, just let me go —

’Cause the monster’s all I’ve ever known.