MyFriend’s Heartbreak&MovingOn Song; #1 Kobie’s Version.

You left your jacket by the bedroom door

A borrowed shirt, a key, nothing more

I held the morning like it meant something

While you were already done running

You said forever with your hands on mine

Now every promise wears a different face

I gave you trust, the part I couldn’t hide

You gave me silence and an empty space

You took my first everything and called it nothing

Left me counting every word you said

I was a person, not a moment you were wanting

Not a name to lose beside your bed

You threw me away, but I’m not your garbage

I’m bruised, not buried underneath your blame

You made me feel used, but you don’t get to own me

I’m taking back my heart, my body, my name

The photograph is still on my socials and albums

Your birthday marked in ink from months before

I hear your voice whenever rooms go quiet

Then tell myself I don’t have to deny it

Our first kiss wasn’t fake to me

The first slow dance still lives in my bones

But if your love was only temporary

Then I can grieve it without calling it home

I won’t rewrite the night to make you kinder

I won’t pretend I didn’t give my all

What happened hurt, but I survived the ending

And your leaving doesn’t prove that I was small

You took my first everything, but not my future

That belongs to me beyond your door

I was a person, and I’m learning how to choose me

I won’t beg to be remembered anymore

I’m standing where your cold goodbye once came

Now I see where I was and where I am now,

But your memory still haunts me, your messages

endlessly relentlessly as I ignore you, as you did to me,

when I needed you at our worst!

I lost my first time to you,

I loved you then and can’t help but love you now.

I gave my heart to you and you gave me yours,

But now I see it wasn’t meant to be with me,

I have wandered lonely and lost, without you in my life.

You were once the girl I grew up with, silently crushing on,

Then one day came and we found ourselves

in each other’s arms, seeking comfort and safety,

I miss those days, being in your arms,

my body entangled with yours in a deep passionate embrace.

When did you lose your love for me?

When did you decide to ditch me in a place meant for us both?

When did your life revolve around a new different relationship?

When did your life abandoned mine with not so much than an

explanation of why, when, where and how it’d happened?

Can’t You be a woman and face me head on and explain why?

Why did you break my heart?

After everything we went through with your brother?

Baby, I know you don’t want me anymore, for any reason,

I’m so confused and lost with my conflicting feelings,

thoughts, emotions and my mental state!

So here I am again.

(So here I am again)

So there I am again,

(So there I am again)

So here I go again,

(So here I go again)

So there I go again,

(So there I go again)

I’m moving on, or at least I’m trying to.