A way out

One minute I’m just riding around smiling, the next I got it in park and I can’t stop crying , all these thoughts come flooding got me feeling like I’m dying , they tell me I’ll be okay but I know they just lying , try to decompress but the pressure keeps climbing, I know I’m gonna fall but the dawg in me keeps trying ,

I need a way out I just need to escape, it’s always on my mind but I know that death ain’t the way, I can’t do this on my own lord I need your saving grace , I may not see it but I know that there’s a way, how can I keep going when all I feel is pain, I’ve lost so fuking much there’s nothing left to gain, hit the pause on life cause I don’t wanna play,

one day I’ll find peace, I know that’s it a stretch but one day I’ll find relief , but for right now it’s just slightly outta reach, my whole world left while I was in jail in Pensacola beach, am I really turning my life around , or am I just brushing paint on the face of a clown, I look in the mirror , say boy you ain’t no killer, call myself a liar and I pull the fuking trigger ,

I need a way out I just need to escape, it’s always on my mind but I know that death ain’t the way, I can’t do this on my own lord I need your saving grace , I may not see it but I know that there’s a way, how can I keep going when all I feel is pain, I’ve lost so fuking much there’s nothing left to gain, hit the pause on life cause I don’t wanna play,

I just bury my feelings and hide what’s in my brain, I just wanna die like every single day, no matter what I do I’ll never be okay, the only peace I’ll find is when I’m laying in the grave