In darkness

I know I been praying a lot but it never feels like enough

So here I am once again down on my knees with my hands clasped together tightly almost pleadingly

Because I can feel the hand of the devil on my left knee I know I have followed in the dark for so long he has a hold on me

The devil whispers into my ear “you know your one of my children so keep following my lead keep listening to my voice I’ll grant you everything you could ever want and need”

And I hear myself shout “devil get away from me I have God on my shoulder ,I know I have lived a life of sin but I am only human “

I feel my mind racing and running in the darkness but even the darkest shadow needs light cast upon it to grow

So my mind is running towards the light shakily feels like a fevers coming on but it stops for nothing

I’m reaching out toward heaven “God please lead me back into your loving embrace “ i scream in tears

I don’t want to live going down the dark and wrong path anymore

So here I am again down on my knees with my hands clasped together tightly almost pleadingly

“God forgive me I know I’m a sinner but I have always believed in you “ my voice says so lightly even I’m not sure if I could believe me

I feel light shine down on my mind filled with darkness and my body shakes softly

“I have never left your side child my love and light has always been here” a voice says inside me I swear I saw hands reaching down from the clouds toward me

“My God thank you for not abandoning me” i cry