Best of me

[soft vocal register] (Mmmhmmm-oooooooh)
[Verse 1]
Last year was a roller coaster 
Every month A different crash
With twist and turns 
No could see but 
I had everything Until it was gone
Laughed it off hard, Cried even harder
Heart racing, Head pounding chasing
Sleepless nights Over stressing wasted
Screen-glow on my face
Scrolling through the highs getting my dopamine
Ghost fading memories, leave my heart like broken
The damage it’s taking upon my empathetic soul
Saving all the little lessons
In a crystal chest, locked away to be dealt with later anyway 
[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve been dismissing my feelings
While these emotions are branded in my head
Now I’m staring at the ceiling
Wondering if I’ll ever feel complete 
starting with a new slate 
While trying to make things ok
[Chorus]
This year
I’m gonna be the best version me
Even when I’m breaking
I’ma let you see
Learning how to hold my storms
Not just to hide in the sea
Trying to find the new version of me
(ooh-Yeah!)
20-25
I’m pulling up alive
This year
Ima show you the best version of me
[Verse 2]
Reaching for air because 
my soul cannot bare
Active mind while body screams 
Asking “why did that hurt me?”
Not just leaving it behind
I’ll name every little trigger
Talk it out instead of freeze
Let my anger speak in whispers
Let my softness take the lead
Sobered up now while emotions detox clean 
[Pre-Chorus]
I was shutting down the moment
Someone crossed a line
Now I’m saying what I’m feeling
Before it eats my mind
Growing my emotional intelligence 
Has not been an easy feat but
Presence and preservation is what keeps me at ease
Which shows the resilience in me
[Chorus]
This new year
I found the new version of me
Even when I’m breaking
I’ma let you see
Learning how to hold my storms
Not just to hide in the sea
I am the new version of me
(ooh-Yeah!)
20-26
I’m pulling up alive
This year
I’m show you the best of me
[Bridge]
I forgive the me from yesterday
Who only knew to run away
Now I listen when my body shakes
[low vocal register] “You’re safe
You’re safe”
If I fall back into old ways
I won’t drown myself in blame
I’ll just try again the next day
Say my own name like a flame
Just by reminding myself 
Take it day by day 
Cheers 
[Female Vocal]
(Alfie b t n -kisses!)
(Mmmm!)

Alt-pop alt-R&B w/warm analog synth pads, roomy drums, and a rubbery bassline. Vocals intimate w/close-mic, soul, male