The Monster I Hide
Verse 1
I wear a smile that’s stitched together,
Thread by thread, it barely holds.
Everybody sees the sunlight,
No one feels the freezing cold.
I’ve learned to laugh at all the right times,
Say I’m fine before they ask.
But every mirror knows the truth—
I’m disappearing behind the mask.
Pre-Chorus
If you could hear the noise inside,
Would you run or stay with me?
I’m terrified the darkest parts
Are all you’ll ever see.
Chorus
There’s a monster living underneath my skin,
Breathing every doubt I’ve ever buried in.
It whispers, “You’re too broken to be loved,”
Turns every open door into another wall.
So I lock my heart where no one else can go,
Better they never see what I already know.
I’m scared if I let the real me through…
The monster won’t be the only thing I lose.
Verse 2
Every night’s another courtroom,
Every thought another trial.
I’m found guilty by my own mind
For surviving one more mile.
I keep the windows covered tightly,
Hope the shadows stay unseen.
Because if they looked a little closer,
Would they still believe in me?
Bridge
Maybe the monster isn’t hungry,
Maybe it’s just learned to survive.
Maybe all these years of hiding
Kept us both barely alive.
Still I shake when someone reaches,
Still I flinch when they get near.
Because love can feel like standing
With your worst nightmare made clear.
Final Chorus
There’s a monster living underneath my skin,
But maybe it was never where I’ve been.
Maybe every scar is proof I stayed,
Not evidence that I was made this way.
If someone sees the darkness in my eyes,
And doesn’t leave, doesn’t turn away this time…
Maybe the monster starts to fade,
The moment I don’t hide its name.
And maybe what’s been haunting me all along…
Was believing I had to face it alone.
Outro
If you hear me when the silence gets too loud,
Don’t mistake my fear for giving up somehow.
I’m still here, even when I can’t believe it’s true…
Just hoping one day I’ll believe
There’s more to me than the monster I hide from you.
