Broken tears

Its been a minute walking through this dark path seconds go by feeling like I'm taking steps back every hour seems like my depression takes a relapse build up so much pain deep inside doing all I can to fight back but seems like everything I do just not right for you suicidal I think it's due with these voices in my head barely can catch my breath hearing they're screams I can only blame me it's my all my fault for they're tears and how they bleed I'm feeling so lost hard to find myself lord please forgive me she deserves souch better know she just had enough