When you’re not here

Verse 1

I say your name in my broken sleep.

Talk to the ceiling like it answers me.

They say there’s a plan, say it’s all divine

But I was there when you ran out of time

Pre-Chorus

I’ve been trying to hold onto faith

Trying to stand upright

But my hands keep shaking

All of the time

Chorus

I don’t have a reason

To be angry at God

But I don’t know how to agree

When you’re not here with me.

I’m still here, yeah, I’m still breathing

I don’t curse heaven, I don’t curse my fate

But I hate the silence you left in this place.

If love is the answer

They keep telling me.

Then tell me why

Tell me why

You’re not here with me

Verse

Your voice still lives in every room

Your laugh still breaks me in two

They say you’re safe, they say you’re home

But I’m the one still standing here alone

Pre-Chorus

If this is mercy, if this is grace

Why does it hurt like this?

If this is mercy, if this is grace

Why did you leave me here?

Chorus

I don’t have a reason

To be angry at God

But I don’t know how to agree

When you’re not here with me

I’m still here, yeah, I’m still breathing

I don’t curse heaven, I don’t curse my fate

But I hate the silence you left in this place

If love is the answer

They keep telling me

Then tell me why

Tell me why

You’re not here with me

If heaven needed you more than I did

Why does it feel like I’m paying for it?

I keep my hands folded, my eyes closed tight

I still pray every night

I just don’t know

What I believe in anymore

I don’t have a reason

So I’m not angry at God

You’re just not here

Not anymore

And I’m still here, still breathing

I’ll never curse heaven, I’ll never curse my faith

Even in the quiet, even in the ache

But I hate the silence you left here with me

If love is the answer

They keep telling me

Then tell me why

Tell me why

You’re not here with me