Why did you choose him

You expect me to love you when you do this to me and not say anything about it mama what would you do if that man hit

me in our lives why would you choose him over me I been with you for nine years don’t leave me now pls momma pls don’t do this to me the only thing I want is to be chosen by me mother but that’s not what she wants she doesn’t want me I hate my life but no one cares and I’m acting like a coward so why is this so sad if I just want to go back to you would you want me to leave me and do things on my own for nothing and I’m just a kid that wants to learn why does it have to be like this so mama I want to tell you I love you and only you as my mother