Afraid of the light

Verse 1

It feels good for a second

Then I hold my breath

Like something’s gonna take it

Like it never lasts

You smile and I flinch

I don’t know why

Happiness feels like

A goodbye

Pre-Chorus

I’ve learned not to trust the calm

Not to lean in too far

Every time I feel okay

I’m waiting for the dark

Chorus

I’m afraid of the light

When it finds me

Afraid it’ll leave

If I let myself believe

I don’t know how to be happy

Without counting the cost

Every time I feel something good

I’m scared of losing it all

Verse 2

I keep one foot in the sadness

Just in case

So when it disappears

I won’t break

You say “stay right here”

Like it’s safe

But joy feels temporary

Like it’s made of glass

Pre-Chorus

I don’t know how to open my hands

Without watching it fall

I don’t know how to feel okay

At all

Chorus

I’m afraid of the light

When it holds me

Afraid it’s not mine

Afraid it’s lonely

I don’t know how to be happy

Without losing control

Every time I let myself feel

I’m afraid of the fall

Bridge

Maybe I don’t need forever

Maybe I don’t need proof

Maybe I can let it be real

Even if it’s brief and it’s true

But my heart keeps whispering

“Don’t you dare get used to this”

Like happiness is something

I’ll be punished for

Final Chorus

I’m afraid of the light

But I’m tired

Of living my life

In the dark

If this joy is a moment

I’ll take it

Even if it breaks my heart

I don’t know how to keep it

I don’t know if I’m right

But I’m trying not to run

From the light

Outro

If I lose it someday

At least I felt it tonight