Verse 1
It feels good for a second
Then I hold my breath
Like something’s gonna take it
Like it never lasts
You smile and I flinch
I don’t know why
Happiness feels like
A goodbye
Pre-Chorus
I’ve learned not to trust the calm
Not to lean in too far
Every time I feel okay
I’m waiting for the dark
Chorus
I’m afraid of the light
When it finds me
Afraid it’ll leave
If I let myself believe
I don’t know how to be happy
Without counting the cost
Every time I feel something good
I’m scared of losing it all
Verse 2
I keep one foot in the sadness
Just in case
So when it disappears
I won’t break
You say “stay right here”
Like it’s safe
But joy feels temporary
Like it’s made of glass
Pre-Chorus
I don’t know how to open my hands
Without watching it fall
I don’t know how to feel okay
At all
Chorus
I’m afraid of the light
When it holds me
Afraid it’s not mine
Afraid it’s lonely
I don’t know how to be happy
Without losing control
Every time I let myself feel
I’m afraid of the fall
Bridge
Maybe I don’t need forever
Maybe I don’t need proof
Maybe I can let it be real
Even if it’s brief and it’s true
But my heart keeps whispering
“Don’t you dare get used to this”
Like happiness is something
I’ll be punished for
Final Chorus
I’m afraid of the light
But I’m tired
Of living my life
In the dark
If this joy is a moment
I’ll take it
Even if it breaks my heart
I don’t know how to keep it
I don’t know if I’m right
But I’m trying not to run
From the light
Outro
If I lose it someday
At least I felt it tonight
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