I’m not ready

You came in like a sunrise

Through a room I kept dark

I forgot how it felt

To let somebody near my heart

You laugh and I lose my guard

For a minute, I’m okay

Then the ghosts of yesterday

Come rushing back again

I wanna reach for you

But my hands still shake

I wanna call it love

But I’m scared of making the same mistake

Maybe I’m falling, maybe I’m afraid

Maybe you’re the right one at the wrong time in my life

You give me something beautiful

And I don’t know what to do

’Cause there’s still a broken part of me

That doesn’t know how to believe in you

I feel you getting closer

While I’m fighting to let go

Maybe this is something real

Maybe I’m just not ready to know

You don’t deserve the silence

When I disappear inside

You shouldn’t have to pay the price

For someone else’s goodbye

And I hate that when you hold me

I’m waiting for the end

Like every good thing comes with

A reason to regret

I wanna give you everything

But there’s something I can’t hide

I’m still learning how to love

Without looking for the knife

Maybe I’m falling, maybe I’m afraid

Maybe you’re the right one at the wrong time in my life

You give me something beautiful

And I don’t know what to do

’Cause there’s still a broken part of me

That doesn’t know how to believe in you

I feel you getting closer

While I’m fighting to let go

Maybe this is something real

Maybe I’m just not ready to know

If I tell you that I’m broken

Would you stay or would you run?

If I tell you I’m still healing

Would you think I’m not the one?

I don’t want to lose you

But I won’t pretend I’m whole

Maybe loving you means learning

I don’t have to be alone

Maybe I’m falling, maybe that’s okay

Maybe you’re the right one and I’m just scared to say

That every time you touch me

Something broken starts to mend

And maybe I don’t need to know

How this story’s gonna end

I’m still afraid of losing

What I haven’t even found

But for once I wanna take the risk

And let my heart come back around

So stay a little longer

While I learn to let you in

I don’t know if this is forever

But maybe this is where I begin

Maybe I’m not ready…

But maybe I’m ready to try.