Still here

(Intro – spoken)
Yeah…
It’s crazy how someone can leave…
And everything stays the same — except you.
(Verse 1)
I still got your name in my phone
I don’t call it, but it won’t let go
Every room in this house feels cold
Even when the heat’s on full
You took pictures off the wall
But the dents still show where they fall
I tell myself I’m standing tall
But I’m barely standing at all
I replay how it ended
Every word, I overbend it
Was it me? Was it distance?
Or just love running out of minutes?
Friends say time’s gonna heal
But time don’t tell me what’s real
All it does is make it clear
You ain’t coming back here
(Pre-Chorus)
I said I’m fine, I lied
I said I moved on, I tried
But every night I close my eyes
And you’re right there by my side
(Hook)
You left, but you’re still here
In my mind, in my fears
In the silence when it’s clear
I’m alone with all these tears
You left, but you’re still here
In the words I didn’t hear
In the “maybe next year”
In the hope that disappeared
(Verse 2)
I deleted every message
But I remember every sentence
Funny how that kind of memory
Never needs permission
You were my safe place
Now my safe place feels vacant
I smile in public spaces
But inside I’m breaking
I hate that I still check your page
Like I’m searching for a change
Like I’m hoping I’ll see pain
So I don’t feel insane
You said love shouldn’t hurt
But it does when it’s unsure
And I gave you all of me
Guess that still wasn’t enough for her
(Bridge – stripped down)
If I could turn back time
Would I fix it or let it die?
I don’t know…
I just know I still ask why
(Final Hook – more intense)
You left, but you’re still here
In my chest, crystal clear
Every breath feels severe
Every “goodbye” still sincere
You left, but you’re still here
And that’s what I can’t bear
You moved on somewhere
I’m just stuck right there

Depression, rap, male vocals