my heart hurts my Angel

Yes you tell me that we are together, that we are going to wait until my investment is profitable before we can get married, that we are together forever and it's true, that's really the most important thing, both for you and for me, and that we can perhaps get married before then ifI am no longer under guardianship. 
Yes my beloved heart, I agree with all of this but nevertheless, I miss you so much my love. 
Touching you, making love with you, time passes so quickly. 
I'm so afraid of losing you my darling love. 
You mean so much to me and I care about you dearly, my darling heart. 
You are truly everything, everything to me. 
My heart hurts my angel when I realize that we may not be together for years and it breaks my heart. 
I so want and look forward to living with you, my beloved love. 
You are the most beautiful man in the world for me and I adore you madly, my love Joseph Q. 
You are not just a great English movie star, you are my love and only you, your love and your warm body against mine could stop all my anxieties of not living by your side. 
I think of our marriage which we were unable to achieve because of my guardian and my psychiatrist who interfered too unfairly in our love life. 
Know that I love you very much my angel and even if my heart is sad without you, know that I have promised you my whole life and my complete love and also that before God, even if I have to stay here in France for a long time in the shadows and that our love, yet so strong, I hope that it canblossom even more one day when we are finally free to marry. 
This will then be the beginning of a superb new life for both of us, my beloved love captain Joseph Q. 
Yes, it is you who guides my life with the help of God, I love you so much and I trust you so much, my tender love Joseph Q. 
You are truly unique to me my man. 
I love you so much my love Joseph Q. 

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