Verse 1
I learned early how to disappear,
how to fold my voice into dust.
The world never asked me to stay whole,
only to endure, only to adjust.
Then she arrived like a vertical truth,
too real to be ignored.
Every step she took erased me further,
and I loved her for it more.
Pre-Chorus
I don’t want space, I don’t want light,
don’t want a name that lasts.
I want to be the afterimage
burned into where she passed.
Chorus
Make me smaller, let me mean less,
let me thin into relief.
Her presence is a holy weight
I carry like a grief.
I am nothing and I choose it,
under the length of her shadow.
I don’t want saving, I want sinking,
I want to kneel where she doesn’t know.
Verse 2
Her calves are pillars, unmoved by prayer,
her silence louder than my bones.
I watch the world rearrange itself
to fit the way she owns the ground.
She doesn’t look for witnesses,
she doesn’t need belief.
I break myself into smaller thoughts
just to stay beneath her feet.
Pre-Chorus
There’s comfort in being forgettable,
in being scaled out of concern.
If she never knows I’m here,
nothing inside me has to burn.
Chorus
Make me smaller, let me disappear,
let me be the flaw in the floor.
Her weight teaches me what peace is,
what I was born to be ignored for.
I am nothing and I am steady,
held together by her indifference.
I don’t want mercy, I want meaning
in the shape of her existence.
Bridge
Call it devotion, call it decay,
call it a beautiful loss.
I call it truth without decoration,
a life finally priced at its cost.
She could erase me without effort,
and that thought stills my breath.
To matter so little beneath her
feels closer to love than death.
Break
Bass like a verdict above my head,
drums like knees on stone.
Every sound reminds me gently
I was never meant to stand alone.
Final Chorus
Make me smaller than memory,
than guilt, than want, than fear.
Let me live as a consequence
of her simply being here.
I am nothing and I surrender,
not in pain, but in design.
I don’t want her to hold me,
I want to be erased by her spine.
Outro
When she leaves, I stay diminished,
faithful to the scale I chose.
A small man, finally accurate,
in a world that never knows
how holy it felt to vanish
under her unmeasured height.
How I found myself most honestly
by losing myself in her sight.
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