My journey has been full of mystery..it’s has been full of scary things that I wish I could unsee. But there was nothing I could’ve done to prevent the pain I felt. I was just a child, I was just so weak, I didn’t understand what was going on, through my mind, or my family! I was too young to see, the problems that were soon to get worse. I have hurt my family in so many ways! I’ve been blamed for things I did no do! I can’t seem to get why I was to blame! I was just a little girl, curious and confused! I was once weak and so lonely that I couldn’t keep up. Now look at what I’ve become, a monster, a burden, a waste of space! I can’t help but as I grow up! I grew up that I was soon to fall! I was no longer that little girl I used to be! I used to be happy, joyful, sweet, kind, curious, gentle and joyful! But now I’ve become a tomboy, opening the door to who I really am! I always felt like something was amiss! I slowly grew apart..I slowly become a broken depressed scared little girl…I bottle up all these feelings inside of my heart..so I don’t burden anyone else with these scars..I take the scissors and I hurt..I only feel pain but happiness, because I deserve it…cut after cut, after cut! One two three four five six seven eight nine ten! Pain anxiety depression fear and anger all bottled up inside of my heart! The memories of all the pain I’ve endured! It’s hurts so much I can’t forget what I’ve done! It’s all my fault that I’ve lost count for how many scars I’ve made! I can’t think of any future where I keep on living this life! I can’t carry this pain anymore! I just want to let myself be free from this world! I am not enough to be a good friend! Just let it go! I have to stay strong but I can’t hold back anymore. It hurts too much to even hold it back..but I must…my emotions my feelings need to be held back…no matter how much it hurts…I hide it behind a fake smile. A smile a laughter no one can see through it. A fake smile that no one could see the pain I truly feel…my feelings I must force away…no matter how much it hurts…please god…I’m begging you to set me free…set me free from myself…set me free from this pain and suffering…let me be free from this world….I can’t take this anymore…..

My life my feelings in a bottle