[Verse 1]
I’m tired of faking these smiles
Tired of saying I’m good
When my chest feel like shattered glass
And my nights don’t get understood
A man with my last name
Turned home into a wound
He was supposed to stand in the doorway
Not leave me bruised in the room
And I still hear that silence
Like it never lets go
I keep folding my pain in my pocket
Like a note I can’t show
[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t tell me to get over it
Don’t tell me to calm down
I learned to laugh with my shoulders up
While my soul was falling down
[Chorus]
I am tired of the mask
I am tired of the lie
I am tired of saying “I’m fine”
When I’m barely getting by
I am tired of the mask
I am tired of the lie
If I shake when I tell the truth
That just means I survived
[Verse 2]
And my aunt heard pieces
She saw the cracks in my face
Still she sat on that secret
Like shame had a place
Now every family dinner
Got a ghost in the chair
And I’m smiling with my fingers
While my heart’s in the stair
I keep asking who protects me
When the protector was the pain
Why I gotta be the one carrying
All of this rain?
[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t tell me to be grateful
Don’t tell me it was small
Some wounds don’t bleed on the outside
But they still break a wall
[Chorus]
I am tired of the mask
I am tired of the lie
I am tired of saying “I’m fine”
When I’m barely getting by
I am tired of the mask
I am tired of the lie
If I shake when I tell the truth
That just means I survived
[Bridge]
I’m not broken for speaking
I’m not weak for the tears
I’m not dirty, I’m not ruined
I was carrying years
If you knew and stayed quiet
Then that silence cuts too
But I’m done being the shadow
I’m done shrinking for you
[Chorus]
I am tired of the mask
I am tired of the lie
I am tired of saying “I’m fine”
When I’m barely getting by
I am tired of the mask
I am tired of the lie
If I shake when I tell the truth
That just means I survived