Have you ever looked into your own reflection
And seen your life is being lived by someone else you don't even recognize
The rings around my eyes become a grave
For the person I used to see
I remember a time when who I am and the life I live felt more like they were on the same page to me
Now it's like dragging myself forward
Whatever direction that is anymore
I'm surrounded by voices, but not a single soul here to comfort me
They're lying to me about who I am,
They're not me, I swear I still am though
And All I do is mess up and embarrass myself
If they had it their way, they'd have me convinced that I'm living in hell
It feels like I've been there once or twice
Memories haunt me of my life sent there to die
A fate so twisted it had to drag me down roads id never go
Left me laying in darkness never felt so alone so alone
Not as if no one else was around
But like the everyone was watching
And I couldn't pick myself of off the ground
Everyone I knew hated and mocked me
Crushed by the weight of the world
not from carrying it
But by the heartache of what everyone thought of me
I dont know how I escaped that
or if I was saved from it
But somehow now I'm here
It feels like part of me got stuck there
Or something else came back with me
I'm missing parts of me
And it feels like I keep becoming someone else
My life feels lost to me
Like I was never meant to be myself
I feel I've lost my connection
Like my feet are no longer touching the ground i used to walk on
Is it falling or flying if there's nothing to keep you grounded in your mind anymore
There's a lot of words to define "crazy"
To me it's the feeling of being completely alone
I didn't do this to myself
I didn't ask for this
There's only one side of this story
Why can't you see my point of view
It's my side or theirs'
Give them what they want, right?
I'm just losing it anyway
these demons know me, maybe better than I know myself
Sometimes the voices go away
But I know they only quiet to make me feel more alone
I dont know if I'd rather see the world as evil or empty
I just know there's more to it than we all can see
Or maybe its just different
Really isn't what it seems
I'm not sure who it is i see in the mirror most days
Where's the person I remember
Am I who I want to be or am I who they want me to be now
I wish these voices would leave me
I wish you would rescue me
Suffering and it's like the whole world can see
Is anyone even watching?
I guess It's just the demons of my past out to get me
The weight of the world's always been too much for me to carry
Who was it that told me I had to carry it anyway?
It wasn't my choice, I dont even know what I'm doing here lately
Is this reality that keeps escaping me?
Or are these voices just an echo of the same song stuck on repeat?
Is this reality that keeps escaping me?
Or are these voices just an echo of the same song stuck
