Ive been sitting here alone so cold I cant think straight, I need to check my attitude so I can make it through and get my head right, cause I really don"t want to fight myself again tonight, and all these memories they just keep on haunting me, they never let me go and they never let me breath, they never let me be alone always make me feel so cold when all I really want is to find peace within my soul.Waking up everyday in the morning take a look around watch the world around me crumble like London bridges falling down,
seeing people living blind like the sun never shines or maybe they just haven"t learned to open up their eyes, and if you think it matters now whether dead or alive if you"re rich or poor in life then I suggest you reasses your morals at the door dont forget why you"re here what"s your purpose what you living for.
Lately ive been finding pieces from my puzzle that"s been missing, no wonder why I struggle in certain situations, the other voice inside my head acts like my double without filtration says whatever comes to mind often creating devastation,
so i came up from behind to clean up all his mess i wish that I could turn him off but I know sometimes he knows best so for now we can share the wheel dont want to fight no more, we both have a purpose and a reason this I know forsure, you"ve helped me and I"ve helped you in different situations and we always seem to make it through running in circles over and over again, not sure where we"re going but we know where we"ve been, life has always been a struggle no matter where we went but for us it doesn"t mean it"s over not until we reach the end.
There he goes again the other voice inside my head tries to get a word in always speaking up interrupting bad timing speaking the same truth but at the wrong time when he steps out of line he needs to be put back in turn the key lock the door tomorrow try it again, but til then I"m gonna need you to sit back and observe and no more talking til I say it"s your turn.
Let me apologize I had to set him aside and told him i have the key now so I"m in control, I know that he gets irritated the longer I keep him in but as soon as I let him out you never know what you"ll get but at least for now there"ll be no interruptions it"s nice to have some peace without the other piece of me.
Here I am once again all alone and lost within overthinking situations that i should leave alone instead
but fear and curiosity gets the best of me
