The you I knew

I was digging through your bedside table 
I found your photo.
It still said you’ll always be number one.

That’s when I remembered all those times we  would watch cable.
You and I on the couch.
Having everything but fun.

The cold from my cozy bedroom hit me 
And suddenly I felt lonely.
Because I used to share this room with more than just myself.

I tried to forget and start a new life.
But freezing is still freezing when you’re alone in a old hotel.

I overheard that you found a new mature man.
One who has a good job
And wears a suit and tie.

It seems like you’ve forgotten all our long talks
About living out of an RV, eating fast food
And doing things on the fly.

So it’s true.
It’s used to be me and you.

And for who?
That’s wasn’t the you I knew.

So I took a walk around the frozen city.
Snow flakes hitting my face like a thousand pounds.
From the corner of my eye I saw you laughing. Talking.
My stomach nearly sunk to the ground.

You looked so happy, like I remember you being.
But it’s wasn’t me by your side.
Memories cascade into a river of thoughts.
Overflowing into my psych.

So it’s true.
It’s used to be me and you.
So it’s true.
That girl wasn’t the girl I knew.

What if she just held my hand one more time.
And this time I made sure to not let go.
I’d hold it and carry you all the way.
To our future, if you’d say it so.

And we’d grow older, and live together.
Never looking back at never splitting up.
Because that’s the future I can see with my own eyes,
Surely my love was enough.

The freezing snow wakes me up from my day dream,
Two o’clock in the morning, 
Laying on the bed.
Covers and blankets cover me completely,
But nothing can cover the thoughts in my head.

So it’s true.
It was supposed be me and you.
I know it’s true.
That girl wasn’t the girl I knew.

What else can i do?

Early 2000s moody pop/rock. Throaty. Post-grunge., male