Won’t Say Those Words

Never gonna say those words.

Not to you.

I can’t,

Because he broke me.

He broke me…

I can’t breathe here,

Consumed by fear.

In your arms,

So safe and warm.

But still,

The fear is there.

The sweat still glistening on your skin.

I’m here,

You’re next to me.

But I can’t let you in.

Bubbling up my chest,

Rolling at the tip of my tongue,

Love like waves,

Just about to crest.

Feel it like a hammer,

On my heart,

You’re holding me,

But I’m worlds apart.

No award.

Just a deadly sword,

Piercing my armor.

My mind wanders again,

Trying hard to let you in.

The glittery glow on you,

Warm purple on your dark skin.

I wish I could let you in.

I wish I could let you in!

Really wanna let you in…

I wish you could feel me as deep,

I wish you could need me as much.

Words caught in my throat,

A tangled knotted bunch.

Bubbling up my chest,

Rolling at the tip of my tongue,

Love like waves,

Just about to crest.

Feel it like a hammer,

On my heart,

You’re holding me,

But I’m worlds apart.

Worlds apart…

Not sure,

Never sure,

When will I say,

I think I love you….

I think I Love you.